Sawshark
Netflix/Amazon Prime binge watching is my choice of drug. Once in a while I medicate myself with streaming mindless films for hours and hours and stay numb. When I can’t tolerate feelings, mindless B horror movies or super violent action movies with serial killers, monsters, vampires, zombies, and werewolves are the most effective sedative. I fall asleep with a horror movie playing.
Netflix learns. If you watch Evil Dead 2 and like it, then they recommend Amityville Horror. They recommend films I didn’t even know existed. I click on one, watch 1 minutes, then move on to the next, till I stumble upon a movie which fits my numbness of the day. Eventually my “You might like these” list looks like something a disturbed teenage boy would like.
When my friend apartment sat, she binge watched Netflix/Amazon. After her visit, Netflix started to recommend something like Beckett, Elizabeth, etc. Since I don’t watch those intellectual films often, it eventually stopped and my Netflix personality returned to the normal.
Yet, the list does not represent who I am.
I guess our brain is like Netflix recommendation. If I keep focusing on traumatic experiences of the past, my brain’s Netflix list will be filled with traumatic titles. Eventually I would believe there are only traumatic experiences in this world. It’s not true.
When Netflix recommended Sharknado and Human Centipede, I asked myself.
“What have I done to my life?”
Well, I chose not to watch Sharknado.
Somatic Awareness 