Sudden Change of the State of Being

Our state of being changes every so often. Job loss, divorce, death of a loved one, etc. Most of the time, it involves one kind of loss or another. If you place a high value on your work, job loss is devastating. If you are used to certain kind of lifestyle, change in financial situation could hit you hard.

I lived long enough to experience many of losses, which brought me sudden change of the state of being. Every time, I fought against it trying to hang onto what I had. I lost my job of 20 years. I lost my marriage. And the hardest was losing everyday function due to incurable health issue.

Three years ago, I developed Meniere’s Disease, an incurable disabling condition. Though it is not life threatening, MD had totally changed my state of being. There were so many things I couldn’t do anymore. I fought against it and suffered, lamenting over the lost functionality.

Then somehow it magically disappeared after 1 year. For the next 2 years, I was as active and functional as I used to be. I had plans for my life, my new career, my new adventure…

Then it came back. I’m basically homebound and often bed ridden. This time, I don’t lament over the loss of my life I expected to have. At this moment, this is how I am. I just need to adjust my priority.

Acceptance of current state of being could relieve you from suffering over the loss.

It still sucks to have Meniere’s Disease, though.

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